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i usualy go to my gfs for a few days each week, she lives a few hours drive away. some weeks i dont go, usualy when shes got PMT, because we both know we will fall out, we do anyway but just on msn, its guaranteed, its like she wants to fall out with me, i try very hard, but its hard to walk around on egg shells.
sometimes i think f**k it whats the point and i just want to walk away, its very draining, shes like a different person.
If i mention that she might have PMT then thats it, she goes off on one, but after, when its passed she's like, oh just ignore me you know what im like when ive got PMT,
the problem is yes i do know, and i hate it, and i wonder if its worth the greif.
shes fallen out with me tonight on msn, really stupid stuff, i know she has, but she wont admit it, and if i ask her if she has, she'll go ape.
the thing is the rest of the month she will be fine and we get on really good, but the PMT comes back all to soon

i got a new phone and when im writing a txt, if i make a mistake, i go to press the C to cancel, but its in a difference place and i press quit by mistake, which means i have to write the whole txt again
its a nice phone though
tell me ill get used to it

funny now i have a blog, i cant think of anything to say
ill think of something to say later

im getting old, people say im not, but i know i am
its funny how you reach 40 and you start to feel different, its like your body decides its time to start slowing down.
the way i think is changing as well, i think about death a lot now,
not in a suicidal way, but stuff like making a will, i really should do it, and also things id like to do before i die.
i think i will do a 10 things to do before i die list as well
need to think about that one though.

does that sound morbid?
its not meant to, and im deffinatly not having a mid life crisis lol
i cant be coz i just sold my sports car